A Thing Of Past

I pretend to be strong

but inside i am breaking apart

all the moments once cherished

are now a thing of the past

you are not able to see

i am not what i used to be

i have lost more than i gained

all my relations are now strained

of all, i miss you the most

because you you were the only friend i had, now lost

hundreds of things i wanna say

but words are not finding its way

feelings now flow in the tears i hide and smiles i lie

you understood my every emotion

and stood by me with devotion

now that's a thing of the past

which i thought would ever last

you left me all alone

with the moments bygone

i am still there, where you left me

waiting with the memories.. 

"kahin toh hogi woh duniya jahan tu mere saath hai..." 

one of my favorites..
whenever i listen to it, it takes me to a whole new world.. :)

Unintentional

I am not a perfect person,

I have had my share of mistakes,

I betrayed those who loved me,

Gave pain to those who made me smile,

But believe me its true,

I didn't want to hurt you,

It was all unintentional..

For your love, all i gave you was hatred,

For your care, i treated you with rudeness,

But believe me its true,

I didn't want to hurt you,

I know i behaved irrational,

But it was all unintentional..

I know you were not fake,

But your love was something i couldn't take,

Everyone was betraying me,

I couldn't see your truth,

I am sorry, i didn't want to hurt you,

It was all unintentional..

You are happy in your life,

I know, now i cant have you back,

I am sorry for all the things i wish i didn't do,

Believe me its true

I didn't want to hurt you

It was all unintentional..

** Dedicated to, all those people whom i have hurted, knowingly or unknowingly, all those who were/are sad or unhappy because of me, just wanna say one thing from the heart..
I am Sorry!! Hope you forgive me.. :) :)

Listen to me, just let me say,
You don't know but you are drifting away,
He doesn't feel the way you do,
These emotions are making a fool of you,
He is not the one you perceive,

His looks and innocence are just a deceive,
This feeling is so overrated,
It's a matter of time that you'll be separated,
You should keep off him, he is not the one for you,
Don't break your heart, you won't get one new,
You'll be left alone in the end,
With a broken heart to mend,
He is making you weak,
But you can't be so meek,
You gotta be strong,
And sing your own song.

Ek baat hai jo honthon pe aayi nahi,

Ek dard hai dil mein jo diya kisi ko dikhayi nahi,

Apna samjha tha use begana nahi,

Par usne tha mujhe kabhi apna mana nahi,

Kehta tha dost hoon main tera,

Par phir bhi saath chod diya jab hua savera,

Aaj bhi dil ko tera intezaar hai,

Tu laut aayega agar tujhe mujhse pyaar hai..

P.S. This post has nothing to do with anyone dead or alive. It is just an imagination of my stupid mind. :D

(I cant laughing after writing this post. Its so funny..!!!!! :D :D :P kindly ignore my stupidity :P :D)

a serious note after the joke:

khuda ka shukar hai ki aansu berang hote hai warna raaton ko bheeg jaane wala takiya na jaane kitne raaz bayan kar deta.

The world is not fair enough.....

When kids aren't caring enough towards their parents, people say so many things "unhone tumhe janam diya h, bada kiya hai, tumhari zaruraton ko poora kiya hai, ab tumhe bhi unka khayal rakhna chahiye, its your duty" , "you should not disrespect your parents" , "maa-baap bhagwan ke samaan hote hai, unka aadar karo" , "unke saath pyaar se raho", "maa-baap ke charno me swarg hai" etc etc etc... if situation goes out of hand, parents drag their own children to courts to sort out the issues..but what if the parents do the same things to their children??? what if they don't care for their children? what if they are indifferent towards their children? what if they crush their dreams?? what if they don't have enough time for them to talk, to celebrate their birthdays, festivals or any other occasion?? where are these people then?? why don't they say anything to the parents?? why do they still support the parents and tell us that whatever they are doing is for our good?? why does no one ever listen to us?? why do we have to do everything according to their wish? why do they think that we are always wrong even when we are adult and are legally able to take and be responsible for our own decisions?? they deprive us of all the things and name it as protectiveness, care and love?? And when we tell them that they are doing wrong, they scold us and say we are manner less and disrespectful towards them...but most importantly how can parents love their child when they don't even love each other?? what should the child do in such cases?? or rather what can a person do apart from crying silently till he sleeps..or wiping away his tears, putting up a fake smile and pretending that everything is fine though deep down he knows nothing is fine and it will never be fine...

does growing up means being deprived of the small small happiness?? does it mean being deprived of one's parents love and care?? does growing up means to break people's hearts and not even caring to mend it??

if this is called growing up, then i wish no one ever grows up...

we just need a little love, a little care, a little understanding and a little support from our parents..is this too much to ask for??

"One love - for the mother's pride
One love - for the times we cried
One love - gotta stay alive
I will survive"

just felt the lyrics to be apt so wrote it down..

**no offense to anyone..it's just a random post..