Miss You...

Dear A. N. 

            I don't know where to start from. We never met each other, never saw each other, maybe didn't even chat much but still you made a place in my heart. I always had problems in trusting people but you were the first and probably the last person whom i trusted without even knowing anything about you! I am still amazed how can, I , of all the people trust someone like this. But then may be it was meant to be like that only. You were my best friend's best friend but despite that you always took my side when i fought with him, because ultimately, you and i, we both wanted the best for him.

I always thought that you didn't exist in real life and that my best friend was playing a prank on me because you both were so similar, you guys used the same words, same likes, same behavior. It was tough for me to differentiate between you two. When you informed me that you'll be coming to Delhi, i was so excited because finally i will be able to give a face to the friend whom i respected so much and you no longer will be an imaginary character but a real person. But may be we weren't destined to meet. Our friendship was the best. We didn't know each other but still wanted the best for each other. Undoubtedly you are one of the best guys i have ever known in life and you'll always be no.1 on the best guys list.

Yesterday i saw you for the first time. I was waiting desperately for this day from the past four years. I was happy to see your photograph, i had a big smile on my face but then the realization dawned, that smile faded away and tears welled up in my eyes.

Its been 968 days since i got that news and 970 days since you actually left us to go to a better place but the people you left back will never be able to move on. When i got the news i was angry on my best friend, i thought he was lying. I was angry that he didn't tell me this earlier. I was angry at him because he was going through a difficult time but still kept me away from all this. I knew he didn't had the strength to tell me the truth because he knew i would be as shattered as he was. And he was right, i was shattered. The moment i got the news i logged into my account and re-read our mails/chats and cried whole night. I kept staring at your profile because that was the only memory i had of you. I used to re-read our conversations whenever i missed you. I used to open the chat box and write stuff but couldn't press enter button because i knew you would never read it. We both never talked about you again. We used to suffer in silence. Every year on that day i used to pray that you be happy wherever you are. I thought i had moved on. But, yesterday i realized that i can never move on. You'll always be special for me. I can't forget you ever. You were one selfless soul, who only wanted the best for me. 

We still cry for you, we still wish for you to be back. The day you left us, our happiness also went away with you. Everything broke, everyone broke and the condition keeps deteriorating day by day. 

Last night the three people whom you loved the most, who loved you the most, cried, and with us you also cried. With every raindrop you tried to comfort us but you realized that your death left a void that can never be filled and that realization made you cry with us because you want us as much as we want you.

Now after so many days, that urge to have you back has again increased. I can give up anything to have you back in our lives again. I wish all this is a bad dream and when we wake up to a new day, you'll be there with us, to guide us, to make us happy, and to set everything alright.

We miss you... You'll always be missed... Our lives are incomplete without you...Please come back. :'(

I would not say Rest In Peace because you can't rest until you see us happy and we can't be happy without you..


Remembering you with every passing second,
Your Friends





P.S. I know why you wrote those testimonial. You were testing me right? :) :'(  I passed that test then why did you go? You knew that i won't be able to handle things alone. You knew i would need your help and support always...then why?? :'( :'(  Please come back.. No one needs you more than we three.. :'( :'(