Friday, June 29, 2012

Invincible Love

Read Prelude and Part 1



Part 2

Soon her dilemma ended when she got to know through some mutual friends that Arnav is committed. She felt betrayed that even after being such good friends Arnav didn't trust her enough to let her know about his life or rather he didn't want her to know. She felt like a fool to have loved him and almost risked her own relationship for him. But deep down she knew it was all her fault. She herself created all this; Arnav never told her that he had any feelings for her. It was all her fault that she took his friendship as love.  She was happy that her life was back on track.

Two weeks later was their farewell. Kanishka knew that after farewell she won’t see or contact Arnav ever again in life and therefore she wanted this farewell to be memorable. She clicked as many photos as possible to keep them as a souvenir of their friendship, a souvenir of her love for Arnav beacuse this was the last memory of Kanishka and Arnav together.

"maan le tu aise, hain zara bhole se, jaante hai waise, hai nibhaani kaise, yaariyan, na chode yaariyan..."

The ringing of her phone brought Kanishka back to the present. It was a call from an unknown number, thinking it to be a call from Vodafone, she disconnected it. She checked the time, it was almost 4pm. She hadn't realized that so much time had passed. Just then the doorbell rang startling her. She opened the door but didn't find anyone. She was about to go inside when she saw a small bouquet of orchids and a card. She picked them up and went inside smiling.

She opened the card
"Happy Anniversary Tashu.
 I love you...”

Orchids were her favorite flowers and only Vikrant knew that. Today was their 2nd marriage anniversary and while going to the office Vikrant had told her to be ready for a surprise.

"I love you and your surprise Mr. Vikrant Sharma", she smiled to herself.

She dialed his number as re-read the card. She froze. 

Had she seen it right? But how can that be possible?

Vikrant had addressed her as Tashu...
But how come he knew this name? Arnav had given her this name.
 
She remembered their conversation

"Why do you call me Tashu instead of Kanishka?”, she asked.
"Your name is too long, and m too lazy to call you by such a long name!”, he joked.
"So you can give me some nick name, Mr. Lazy", she said.
"That's why I call you Tashu pagal", he replied.
"But why Tashu??" she argued.
"Because I love this name and it’s a secret between you and me. Only I will call you by this name, don't tell this to anyone, samjhi", he said.

Kanishka had never told this secret to anyone, not even Vikrant then how did he came to know about it?

Were those flowers sent by Arnav? How did he got to know her whereabouts?
She wasn't in contact with any of her college mates. No one knew where she was. Then how could Arnav send these flowers to her? Or was it Vikrant's prank?
Her mind was full of questions, but answers unknown. She was about to call Vikrant when her phone rang. It was the same unknown number.


Invincible Love

Prelude



Part 1 

Eight years back...

It was the first day of her college and she being a reserved person was nervous. Infinite questions were going on in her mind, how will she interact with people? What will she talk about? How on earth is she gonna make friends at this place? Amidst all this nervousness and confusions she saw him, the guy who was going to stay in her mind and heart, for quite sometime or may be forever.

Arnav didn't fit into the "tall, dark and handsome guy" category but yes he was smart though he looked a bit studious and serious kind but when he smiled, Kanishka was left spellbound. It seemed as if all her nervousness suddenly disappeared. She felt stupid standing there and staring at a guy whom she doesn't even know! She regained her senses and rushed to her classes.

Gradually Arnav and Kanishka became friends. Though they never interacted much but even a small "hi" from Arnav was enough to make Kanishka's world go round. She didn't knew whether it was love or just another crush. Arnav was a good looking guy, a great combination of looks and brains. Almost all the girls of the college went gaga over him but all this didn't bother Kanishka because she knew he didn't like any of those girls. As time passed her feelings took a back seat. She was now in a relationship with her best friend Vikrant and Arnav too got committed to one of his classmates. But even after that Kanishka knew that she liked Arnav though she wasn't able to zero in what she actually felt. Both Kanishka and Arnav were happy in their respective relationships and she didn't want to spoil the lives and happiness of so many people that too when she herself wasn't sure of her feelings. She convinced herself that he was just one of her crushes and moved on.

The final year of college gave a new twist to their lives. Arnav broke up with his girlfriend while Kanishka fell more in love with Vikrant but the friendship between Kanishka and Arnav reached new heights. As time passed they became very good friends or so she thought.

Arnav was always there for her; helping her in problems, making her laugh when she even refused to smile, surprising her with gifts on her birthday but he didn't knew that with each of his acts he was making her fall for him, even harder than before. She started believing that Arnav also had feelings for her, feelings which were more than friendship. Kanishka tried to convince herself that whatever Arnav did or was doing was an act of friendship but her heart refused to listen. After trying for infinite times she let her feelings flow in the hope that with her college life her friendship with Arnav will also end and so will her feelings.
"Kanishka and Arnav are not meant to be together", she tried convincing herself.

Moreover she was in a relation with a guy who loved her very much, who never left her side, who always supported her, who was her best friend from the time when she didn't even understood the meaning of "friend", how could she even think of breaking his heart? She made up her mind that Vikrant is the one made for her and tried her level best to avoid Arnav but every time she looked at him, her heart ditched her and with each passing moment she fell more in love with him. She didn't know what to do. Should she tell Vikrant? But what would she say? That she is betraying him because she has fallen in love with a guy who doesn't have any feelings for her? Or should she stay quiet and spoil Vikrant's life?

Invincible Love

Prelude

They say rain reminds you of the special people in your life. Kanishka never believed it. For her it was a line straight out of a fairy tale and she was too mature to believe in all this stuff. She knew life wasn't a fairy tale, there is no Mr. Perfect and no prince charming will come riding on a white horse! 

But today was different day. She sat besides the window watching the raindrops with a cup of coffee and the photo album searching for her "perfect picture". It was not only a photograph but a memory of "them" together for the first and the last time. The first sip of coffee took her back to those days when she understood the meaning of her life, days when she got to know what love is, days when she fell in love with Him..

Arnav, though not her first love but certainly her last because she knew that no matter what, she would never be able to love someone as much and as deeply as she loved him.


Eight years back...





P.S. my first ever attempt at writing a story. It might turn out to be a horrible one. Please cooperate ;)

Monday, May 21, 2012

Yeh Safar

Yun phirta hai tu darbadar
kis chaah mein hai teri zindagi ka safar
na ye tu samajh paaya tha, na samajh paaya hai
par jald hi aayega woh pal
jab tera maksad hoga safal
milegi tere jeevan ko nayi disha
milegi tujhe jeene ki woh wajah
tab tak tu kar bharosa USPAR
jisne likha hai tera yeh safar

woh andhero mein roshni bhi dikhlaega
musibato mein raasta bhi bnayaega
ladkhadaya hai tu toh chalna bhi sikhaega
woh tujhe teri manzil tak pahuchaega
reh befikar, aage badh nidarr
woh har kadam par tera saath nibhaega
woh tujhe teri manzil tak pahuchaega..

maana raasta hai katthin par andheron mein bhi tu timtimaega
aage badh nidarr tujhe woh raasta dikhlaega
hongi khushiyan tere bhi jeevan mein
sapno ko haqiqat bhi banaega woh
bas kar bharosa uspar jisne likha hai tera yeh safar.. 

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Best Friend

"This post is entirely dedicated to my best friend - GOD"


When i was weak, YOU gave me strength to carry on.

When i was about to give up, YOU gave me the hope to fight again.

When i was sad, YOU were there to listen me out.

When i was happy, YOU shared my happiness.

When i got confused, YOU showed me the way.

When i didn't study, YOU helped me in my exams. 

When i was nervous, YOU gave me the confidence to move on.

YOU never left me, even though my "friends" did.
 
YOU believed in me, even when i had stopped believing in myself.

YOU protected me, whenever someone tried to harm me.

YOU were there to listen to my ramblings.

YOU answered all my questions through your signs. 

YOU sent people in my life, so that i could learn something from them.

When i cried for those who left me, YOU assured me that no one would be with me in my journey except YOU.

YOU blessed me with everything i needed.
YOU are the only one i trust, because i know you would never break it.

YOU were with me like a shadow to help me, protect me, guide me and motivate me. 

And i know YOU will always be there for me.

With YOU on my side, i know that i can face all the problems because i know you are there with me every moment to help me move ahead.

YOU care for me and protect me like a parent, help me like a friend and guide me like a teacher.

And I, like a good child/friend/student, face all the hurdles to move ahead with an assurance that with my every step YOU are with me.

I know whatever you do is always for the best, though i am not able to understand at that time, but eventually i learn that your decision was right.

Thank you for everything best friend :) 


I couldn't find more beautiful and apt lines to describe our relation - a relation between GOD and HIS CHILD..


"Mitt jaate hain sabke nishaan
bas ek woh mitt ta nahin haye
maan le jo har mushkil ko marzi meri haye
ho humsafar na tera jab koi
Tu ho jahan rahunga main wahi
tujhse kabhi na ik pal bhi main judaa
tu na jaane aas paas hai khuda,
tu na  jaane aas paas hai khuda.."